Saturday, July 6, 2013

More Nudges from Heaven, Tender mercies. SO THANKFUL

Thinking back on the tender mercies once again.   I'm incredibly THANKFUL! This past few months I have recognized that  those tender mercies have given me a little intuition/nudging from heaven? And what happens when I don't feel a nudging and bad things happen. I reflect back to several incidents in our lives/children's life when we have really had no warning. We are here on earth to learn and experience and grow until Our mission in life is complete. And I'm holding on to that belief. It's all in God's hands. I've had nudging and then I have had no thought for what would happen. Such is these past few day's. Yes, little things are a BIG deal when your life is already fragile.
 For example:
  I blogged a little of it. Here's the story.  One morning in March Mr. Clark didn't wake up at his normal early hour. I think he had been going at both ends (sick) the night before. This morning, He didn't wake up to call into work and I really couldn't wake him up. I checked his blood sugar. It was fine. I was a little frustrated with him, actually pretty mad at him!! (reasons that were legitimate before he got sick ie: we are human!) Never the less always love this guy and always SOoooooo worried, so I called into my work and took the day off, and I called his work. Thinking I would call the Dr. as soon as they opened. Which  I did. We are on the 'priority' phone list (special hu!) so the receptionist told me she would have the nurse call me. Mr. Clark continued sleeping. I did some laundry, straightened through the house with thoughts in my mind racing back and forth. Should I be concerned? Should I let him sleep?  Sleep seemed to be what anyone with flu like conditions would do??? Then while scouring the kitchen I felt this nudge. Kinda like a push/shove in the back. and a PROMPT message. Call the Dr. NOW! And since I was waiting for the nurse to call me, I called our nephrologyst. His nurse answered. I said, "Mr. Clark is being unresponsive. He is sleeping very sound, should I get him to E.R?" The nurse said, "the doctor is actually standing right here, let me ask him" --(now I recognize that as a tender mercy!!!)  He said, take him to admitting at the hospital I will put in the orders right now. So I woke him up, *sorta had to get firm with him to get him dressed. Somehow (pretty sure ten angels helped me) I got him in the truck and arrived in the admitting. It was pretty hard just getting him in the hospital let alone through admitting. I still visualize it in my mind and it scares me! I'm giving the admitting our info and he's just laying limp in a chair. We get him to his room and they begin checking him out. His oxygen appears low, so they put him on air and he perks up a bit. We are talking casually with the nurse. "ya, probably just the flu, it's going around" and he's in good hands, so I go get lunch. A late lunch after all of this. I think it was about 4:00. When I come back the nurse(S) are whisking him off to the I.C.U telling me his oxygen is at 60 %. It's low, very low. She tells me I did the right thing by getting him to the hospital when I did, "He would not have lived through the night" Just a testament that it is NOT Mr. Clark's time to leave this earth. And he would have left me when I was angry at him. I guess God knew I wouldn't be able to live with myself!! A tender mercy indeed!
    So you can see my concern with the little things such as 'it may be the flu.' On this 4th of July.
 When Mr. Clark woke me up coughing, throwing up, unresponsive, sugar off the charts. I'm in a panic. What should I do.  Do I take him to ER. (it's a holiday) I prayed. --nothing. -- yes, I checked his oxygen level, its fine, I check his temperature, its fine. (for a kidney failure person a fever is and immediate trip to the hospital!!! So I'm going back and forth. "Heavenly Father", I plead. "I need help here???" Nothing!!  I'm about crazy. "I feel so RESPONSIBLE for the decisions regarding my husbands life. PLEASE!!!!!" Then, Just a *calm feeling and then I question the calm feeling... "Are you sure??" Who does that??? What if I'm not doing the best for him?? then... calm feeling. But what if ...??? I'm concerned because I could once again be making a wrong decision. I am putting it in Gods hands. Evening falls, I text our kids and say, "I'm scared and please pray for Dad." I can't even get him awake -after all day of sleeping to walk into the dialysis room to let me get him hooked up. And then.... After I finish talking to the kids, he just pops up and is able to dialyze. (a tender mercy/answered prayers. )
July 5: Mr. Clark is sleeping, when he attempts to move he is nauseated and is throwing up. Is it the FLU????? ahhhhhhhhhhhh. Just for peace of mind I decide to try to get Mr. Clark to the doctor.
His health is much too complicated and compromised to guess. So I plead with Mr. Clark to see a doctor before the weekend. Maybe just a nausea med??? anything to help. I'm so worried. And he finally agrees. **And the Doctor is guessing the flu. Today, he isn't sleeping, he stills feels bad. He is still nauseated, he is still very weak and guess what he is doing????? Mowing the lawn.... He just pushes himself. And As his care taker, I'll just keep Praying. Praying.... I continue to get answers to my prayers!!! :) and more nudges from Heaven.

Monday, July 1, 2013

Second trip to Utah

This trip back to Utah after two weeks break was a l-o-n-g drive. Thank goodness we had our Grand daughter for company. Well.. This trip was for business. It was a mix of pampering/night mare.
We had a wonderful time at Scofield Resevoir fishing with the Menloves. They even had a contest on who could catch the most fish. The fish were popping onto the lines and they all had a GREAT time.
    Until we got back to Huntington too late. Upset Gramps and the tension was thick. Especially when we tried to begin dialysis and  I realized that apparently I didn't pack so well.  First thing--after traveling 1400 miles I realized I left the cords to the dialysis machine back in Kansas. After a few melt downs, Terrence came to the rescue when he discovered that the machine could use computer cords. Problem solved and Mr. Clark did NOT have to take a trip to ER like we would have until the cords could be shipped. Shew. Our son, Terrence made me commit to making a spread sheet/check off list of supplies for our next trip.
     Our Fathers day weekend was spent at Gramps house. It was a relaxing time--once the drama was over. Linda made an AMAZING meal and we enjoyed the day.


 
On Monday, Mr. Clark spent the day working with Tyrel and Gramps and I spent the day shopping and lunch with our daughter Elyse. This was her only day off to spend just Mother and Daughter.
IT WAS WONDERFUL!
 
We spent the next three days in Salt Lake City at an conference for Mr. Clarks work.  And we felt so PAMPERED!
Wonderful event.
 
Our last day with family included Strawberry Day's with the Menloves, Jason and the Gilberts.
They NEVER miss any action!!!
So FUN!!!!












Mr. Clark is looking pretty wore down. Besides FREEZING.
He decided to go with Jason to the truck to get the heater on. It was so touching to see Jason and the rest of the crowd in our seating area assist him off the stands.  





The time with family was over. We said our "see ya later's" and headed to Huntington to say "see ya later" to Gramps. Yes, I went to start dialysis before we hit the road and.... I left the solution warmer in Lehi. :(   Tyrel, Danielle and Laura rescued me out of this mess. They hit the road and met to get the warmer. Shew. A nightmare for dialysis. Sure was exhausted traveling with it. Yet, So grateful we don't have to find a center to have it done. It's the good and bad of our routine.
Bet I get a trailor for the next journey to Utah!! All the supplies need to stay in one place!!!
So sad to go. So happy to be home. It's mixed emotions.

Grand Daughters Visit to Kansas

Yes, Miss K got to spend 2 weeks at Grammy and Pappa's house.
Can't believe we have a Grandchild old enough to travel such a distance and be away from her family.
They missed her terribly.
But..
WE HAD A BLAST!
Little Miss K is an EXCELLENT TRAVELER!
It reminded me of the time when I, myself was able to  travel with my Grandparents to Washington State.
My memory was locating white horses.
If I found 3 I got a ice cream cone!
We swam at our first hotel, but Grammy got sick with the flu
(it was not a good second day of traveling for me!)
Miss K, used her imagination on my tablet and filled it up making interviews about the scenery. It was so fun to listen to her!
and when we arrived...
First things first!
WE LITERALLY
SHOPPED UNTIL WE DROPPED!
Then Day 2:
We went to the flower store and came home and planted flowers and Tomatoes
and then we played Barbies
Day 3:
We had lunch at Old Chicago and then went to a water park. Kylie made new friends and attempted the drop off slide.
Yes, I nearly had a heart attack
The red slide is the drop off.
A better view of the drop off. This is her coming off the safer slide
On the lazy river


Her new friend




IT WAS SO FUN!
 
Day 4:
 
We saw the movie
"EPIC"
With a monster popcorn and 2 icee's Each!!!
 
Day 5:
 
We went Garage Saling
and went to a near by water park.
 
Day 6:
CHURCH DAY
 
Day 7:
THE ZOO
and we had a BLAST!
 
Day 8:
Shopped again,
Made cookies
Day 9, 10, 11
Took it easy to get ready for the long journey back to Utah
 Just had a wonderful time with Miss K.
Made lots of wonderful memories.
Hope to do this with all the Grands!