WARNING: THIS IS NOT A POSITIVE POST.
STOP HERE! WE ARE DOING OK
I woke up this morning with my hair literally glued to my head. A three day weekend and once again I spent it in bed. Flat for days and realizing I've done this for months now. First feeling exhausted and Second --Grrrrr Had the cold/flu bug twice but it feels like it has never gone away. Thought I was being lazy and needed to get off my duff. So I signed up for 'boot camp' an exercise regiment at 5:00 am one day a week (nearly killed me the 3 times I went!), took on a bible study for youth at 6:00 am one day a week. Plus my (2) full time jobs. I say 2? Mr. Clark's dialysis is my second full time job! but honestly Its not as hard as it sounds. My job? at school? I drive kids back and forth to job sites/school. It's a piece of cake. And I come home and sleep. And lately I sleep every 30 minutes through dialysis. I've just been that tired. So it's not that hard.
In between....
Mr. Clark nearly lost his life. Sick with pneumonia, he just wouldn't wake up. Some how I got him to the hospital. Yes, it was a nudge from heaven. Mr. Clarks Mom, I believe. I swear his Mom whispers to me a lot . SO GRATEFUL. And most of the time I listen! She also nudged Mr. Clark do get into the truck with probably the help of a few more angels! He was nearly unconscious! When we got to the hospital his oxygen was 60%. They said he would have died in the night. Terrifying. But the message to us both. IT IS NOT HIS TIME. Life can easily slip away when it is. During this time, I had the cold bug. Pretty hard to stay in I.C.U for 5 days SICK. Bahhhhhhhh Because I.C.U doesn't allow visitors past Nine I was able to come home and get some rest.
Rest????????? It hasn't helped. I wake up tired. On top of this, I have tried to keep up with Mr. Clark who has to keep distracted because of his intense restless legs. He can't sit, or stand. He just has to keep busy. And because he's the weak one I try to keep up with him. I'm exhausted on top of being exhausted.
Yes we've done
a lot of projects. If we took a movie of it. It's about doing something/crashing on the floor, doing something/crashing on the floor. Seriously both pushing our selves.
On top of all the business, somehow I have hurt my shoulder lifting. So I've been to the doctor and the chiropractor. My shoulder has been Taped --that's a new one for me. This week--- yes my M.R. I was finally approved. and blood work to see why I'm always so exhausted.
In the mean time. Mr. Clark is fighting the flu again.
And depressed............ Our trip to see our family is post poned until June/July
Lets just let JUNE get hear and let us be healthy!!!!!!!!