Thankful Thursday: Melt downs, Ice Cream and Memories

 Ahhhhhhhhhh Just for Today I feel like BAWLING!
Yes, I should be cleaning my house.

But it has been a MELT DOWN DAY!
TODAY I am

Flashing back memories of dear friends, Clarks Mom, and family members with heart aches.

Tears and more Tears

After a  phone call from Mr. Clark I decided today is just going to have to be a melt down day.

This was our conversation,
Mr. Clark: "Oh its earlier than I thought, I'm so sorry to call you while you're at work"

Me : "it's ok, it's ok. Is everything alright?"

Mr. Clark: "oh ya, I'm fine I just wanted to say, I LOVE YOU"

Now normally --wait a minute this type of phone conversation doesn't happen normally!

So I got emotional. Stepped out into the hall at school and

shedd tears.

I'm worried for him.

For this new road we are about to travel.

 for sure-  it's a melt down today.

So crying is just the way it is.

I know It'll be ok.

 We have to be couragous tomorrow.

Tomorrow is the Day Mr. Clark gets his port to get ready for dialysis. It's just a simple surgery but has a vast life changing meaning.

For us, it means-

It's real

His kidneys are toast.

TEARS :(

I am Thankful that he is still beside me.

Thankful to hear those words,
"I LOVE YOU"

Thankful for modern technology.

Thankful that

our love for each other is not taken for granted.
On melt down days I need ICE CREAM!

So when I got home today

I dished up two HUGE bowls of ICE CREAM

And on to preparing for tomorrow.
First:

Today is Clark's Mothers Birthday. We are thinking of her today.

Oh, if she could just be with us  RIGHT NOW!

In spirit, I'm sure she is.

Thankful for memories of her.

 I am Thankful for Tears, Ice Cream, The man I love and

Memories of DeAnn.

On a positive note:

I am picking up my Brother Blair at the Airport tomorrow.

SO Blessed that he'll be with me.

For these things I AM THANKFUL

 

To our Dear Friend Larry.

We will treasure the memories of you forever. We will treasure the time we spent hunting, camping. We will treasure that you were the TRUEST OF FRIENDS to our parents. We will treasure the memories of you with you true love, Ethyl. We will treasure your perfection, your laugh, your jokes. We will always treasure the Pride you had in your beautiful children and Grandchildren. We will treasure that you made each one of us feel loved. May you be met in Heaven by those who have passed on before. YOU WILL BE MISSED. GOODBYE FOR NOW. WE WILL SEE YOU AGAIN SOON.

Thankful Thursday: PEACE

Today Mr.Clark and I had a lot of emotions.

We are starting the process of Dialysis.

After a busy day at  Several Doctors

We found PEACE.

1- To be informed  BRINGS US PEACE.

2-Knowing that Mr. Clark will indeed feel better,

BRINGS US PEACE.

3- Running into Mr. Clark's Special Nurse that became our dearest friend after 14 weeks of Home Health Care - years ago with the TOE incident.

She comforted both of us about the change in our lives.

After our hugs, We turned around to say goodbye and was over come with Emotions. To know how much she cares and the comfort she gave us

BRINGS US PEACE.

4- To see another persons trials makes us forget our own:

Went to visit our friend Terri, who is suffering so intensely from the effects of Cancer.

Oh, our problems are minimal.

Her Faith Brings us PEACE.

And finally

5- Mr Clark's words, " Sharon, I know it will be OK"

For THE FEELING OF PEACE heading into the unknown, WE ARE THANKFUL

Thankful Tuesday: Prayers (again)

Today I am Thankful for PRAYERS.

This was my conversation with someone where I work.
*note: I have only worked with these people 3 months.

Co-Worker:  "Sharon, what is your husbands name?"

Me: "Clark, Why?"

Co-Worker: "Oh I'll remember that for next time. We put your husbands name on our prayer roll at our church. We just put Mr. Mills"

Me: TEARS.

Heart felt  and Humble Appreciation.

Wow, How special is that.

Our church has a prayer roll too. It is at our Temples.

I know how important it is to come together for a special purpose and there is power in prayer. .

There is also strength in numbers.

Mr. Clark also feels humble and so grateful when people tell him they have been praying for him.

People that don't even know him.

Parents and Little Ones at Our Church.

Our children,

Especially the prayers of our little Grandchildren.

"Papa Clark, I pray for you every day"

 Mr. Clark and I are touched that so many would include him in their Prayers.

IT MEANS SO MUCH.

 So Thankful For the people that surround us

For Family,

For Friends,

For Co-workers,

For God, who hears and anwers our prayers.

FOR THIS I AM THANKFUL

Sunsets, Cold Breeze, Moonlight, Green Grass, Leaves and Trees, Flowers, Mountain Streams, Birds Songs, Warm Sunshine, Oceans

View what I believe about Jesus Christ  Here

A letter for You.

My Dear Friend,

How are you? I just had to send you this letter to tell you how much I


love you and care about you. I saw you yesterday as you were walking

with your friends. I waited all day, hoping you should walk and talk with

me also. As evening drew near, I gave you a sunset to close your day and

a cool breeze to rest you. Then, I waited, but you never came. Oh yes, it

hurt me, but I still love you because I am your friend.

I saw you fall asleep last night and I longed to touch your brow, so I

spilt moonlight upon your pillow and your face. Again I waited, wanting

to rush down so we could talk. I have so many gifts for you.

You awakened late this morning and rushed off for the day. My

tears were in the rain. Today you looked so sad, so alone. It makes my

heart ache because I understand. My friends let me down and hurt me

many times, but I love you. I try to tell you in the quiet green grass. I

whisper it in the leaves and trees and breathe it in the color of the flowers. I

shout it to you in the mountain streams and give the birds love songs to

sing. I clothe you with warm sunshine and perfume the air. My love for

you is deeper than the oceans and bigger than the biggest want or need you

could ever have.

We will spend eternity together in heaven. I know how hard it is on

earth. I really know, because I was there and I want to help you. My Father

wants to help you too. He’s that way, you know. Just call me, ask me and

talk to me. It is your decision…I have chosen you and because of this I will

wait…Because I love you.

Your friend, Jesus

Thankful Thursday: Blue Ribbon's

After reading here. I decided to dedicate the BLUE RIBBON to my Mr. Clark. After working so hard, eating the dreaded no potassium diet of plain rice and pasta. Staying away from the food that he loves. And fighting hard everyday for the strength to work hard. The results came in. He didn't get the BLUE RIBBON today. But when we came home from the Doctor, while he was quietly sleeping in his chair I kissed his forehead and thought how he deserves so many BLUE RIBBONS. He never ceases to amaze me. He has the highest endurance of anyone I've ever seen. So this passed few weeks when he just hasn't had any energy and his body just couldn't battle the cold virus. That's when we knew once again something more was up. He is about over his cough.  His eye treatments went well. Yet again anemia sets in, and his kidney's take a turn for the worse.  Today he couldn't bare to tell anyone, not our family, no especially not his Dad. He couldn't bare to let him know he didn't get the BLUE RIBBON at the Dr. today. We'll begin a new chapter next week. The dreaded word became real. "Dialysis" ( yes, at home and he'll still be able to work. )  In quietness we both could barely speak. Then after hours he said. "Lets just not make this a big deal." Yes, he deserves a zillion BLUE RIBBONS for courage and optimism!   After talking with the kids, and Grumps we've come up with this conclusion. YES, He can only feel better.  So tonight we will move forward. Praying with all our might a kidney becomes available so that his quality of life can get better. Mr. Clark  already has so many BLUE RIBBONS, when its all said and done he will get this blue ribbon back! He will always be our winner, he's had his own Gethsemane.  To be a part of this man's life and to be apart of  all his BLUE RIBBONS,  I AM THANKFUL.

Take comfort.

In the harderst times in my life this song has gave me comfort. Where Can I Turn For Peace? Where is my solice when other sources cease to make me whole? When with a wounded heart, anger, or malice, I draw myself apart, Searching my soul? Where, when my aching grows, Where when I anguish, Where in my need to know, where can I run? Where is the quiet hand to calm my anguish? Who, who can understand? He, only One. He answers privately, Reaches my reaching In my Gethsemane, Savior and Friend. Gentle the peace he finds for my beseeching. Constant he is and kind, Love with out end. Text: Emma Lou Thanyne 1924, John 14:27; 16-33 Hebrews 4:14-16 Music: Joleen G. Meredith 1935 Sang by: World known - Mormon Tabernacle Choir

Thankful Tuesday: A COLD DAY- Good News and Bad News

The Good News and Bad News about a COLD DAY...

The Good: We are out of School!

We are not out for a snow day. Although we have about 4 inches.

It's not an ICE day.

Although the roads are icey.

The reason school is cancelled?

IT'S COLD

It's been 18 below zero.

The Bad is:

Mr. Clark is sick.

He has a cold/cough.

Went to the Doctor yesterday.

He has a small infection on his lungs.

Hopefully the antibiotic won't affect his kidneys.

Another Bad is:

He is grumpy

Mr. Clark is NEVER grumpy!

He is sick of the recliner.

Where he has lived for the past week.

The GOOD NEWS:

We are hoping he's grumpy because he's getting better!

More Good News:

I can be home with him today.

So for today

I am THANKFUL

not to be anywhere but HOME! 

Missed Thankful Thursday, Celebrating Fabulous Friday!

Thursday passed me by but I am  'thankful'  now for the days when FABULOUS FRIDAY means the weekend is here. It's been a while since I've looked so forward to 'no work'. Wait a minute... No 'School Work' that is!  So here is to laundry, baking, house cleaning etc. Have a WONDERFUL WEEKEND ya'll    XO

Thankful Tuesday: a little bit of friendship

Today I am thankful for welcoming a new little baby to scrappin' day! It was fun to cuddle and kiss this precious little boy.

Makes me even more anxious for our new addition in our family to arrive!

Thankful to get back to the routine of friends surrounding me.

We had some catching up to do.

Enjoyed some good laughs. 

I am thankful for dear friends that remind me to have fun.

It was fun to put the cares of life aside for a minute,

to get a second wind.

I realize how important it is to have them in my life.

A great way to start the New Year.

For this bit of back to fun and the importance of friends

I am thankful.

For those important people I didn't get to hang out with.

You are missed and loved in my heart.

Whatever Day. Tuesday 10 to 4

Whatever Day at my house. Scrapbooking or 'Whatever' The food theme: Appetizers. Check out my favorite recipe Blog for some fun ideas. Our Best Bites: New Year's Eve Appetizers Hope you can come! To those who live too far away. TEARS! XO