Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Thankful Tuesday: Company

BACK TO BLOGGING!
We have had company since Easter
Oh it has been a wonderful thing!
Terrence, Laura and the Cutiecakes.
 Mr. Clark's Dad, Sis and Nephew, Niece and her family.
Because we have traveled so often we understand the sacrifice financially that it takes. We are even more appreciative and so THANKFUL  for these visits.
IT MEANS SO MUCH TO US.
Mr. Clark's Dad stayed with us for two weeks
I can't say how much we enjoyed him without crying!
He was such a great support to both of us, but to me especially.
Once Mr. Clark was on his evening dialysis. Gramps would go into his room to get a little rest,
and then when things got difficult-- 
 He would come out and sit with me. Usually between 10:30pm and midnight. Sometimes between 1:00 and 2:00 am
So when he left I felt my support team/cheerleader/comforter- left too.
Tears.
I know it's hard to understand.
This dialysis is so emotionally draining.
We talk about how close to death he can be and it is terrifying.
Just one more reason we will be so APPRECIATIVE of getting back to health. If it is Gods plan for Clark.
During this time 
Gramps wanted to see Oklahoma
so we drove 3 hours had lunch...
had plans to see the Oklahoma Memorial and the Cowboy Museum
BUT...
After lunch
WE GOT A PHONE CALL!
Mr. Clark was on standby for a *kidney in Kansas City
SOoooooooooooooo
We immediately hustled home.
It was pretty exciting!
And nerve racking too!
It would have been a miracle to have Mr. Clark's Dad here during this time.
Behind the scenes...
Mr. C got sick with anxiety and we had a 'little' argument about taking Pepto Bismol
He just wouldn't travel well with this problem !
And I was right about NOT taking anything but I didn't win! Gramps was on Clark's side! I think he spoke from experience... 
(we will know better for the next phone call!)
We made it home and received calls all night that they were still WAITING to hear about the cross matches.
You see, they had 2 kidneys
Both recipients matched.
at 10:30pm we heard the words 'not this time' 
The very exciting part is that we are getting closer.
Which means--
WE WILL NOT BE VACATIONING THIS SUMMER unless it is for transplant!
School is out and I'm home!
SO EXCITED to have some TIME!
NOW WE NEED MORE  COMPANY!!!!!!!
Family is everything.
For this WE ARE THANKFUL!

LET THE SUMMER BEGIN!

Saturday, May 12, 2012

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

To all of the beautiful woman  that have made a difference in my life. To the beautiful Mother I was blessed to have. To my Sister in Laws whom I cherish even more because they have been my only Sisters. To the beautiful Aunties that continue to bless my life. To all my Nieces who bring sunshine into our lives. To My dear Mother in Law who raised a great son that I have been blessed to spend my life with. To the Mothers of my children's spouses for raising such beautiful people. To my sons for marrying such special girls. Which is a HUGE blessing to now have 3  daughters - Elyse, Laura and Danielle who I AM SO PROUD TO CALL MY OWN! They all are special, special people with great talents and nurturing spirits. And MOST IMPORTANTLY to the 3 children I was blessed to birth and raise. I AM BLESSED TO BE YOUR MOTHER! I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU'LL KNOW!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Thankful Thursday: I'm not crying about a river!

Our evening routine of dialysis was just getting underway. Things were actually going really S-M-O-O-T-H. We cherish those moments too! I decided to go to the basement for a quick minute and L-U-C-K-I-L-Y I did. With my *deaf ears I heard the sound of dripping. And when I surveyed where it was coming from it wasn't a good place. In the spot light above the fireplace. Which meant... The upstairs bathroom was flooding. I ran upstairs and discovered that the drain line from Mr. Clark's dialysis machine, that is suppose to be secure in the toilet. Was on the floor. An inch of water had already accumulated in just 30 minutes. Holy, Smolly... I immediately realized that although the line popped out of the toilet, and we had a mess. It could have been much, much worse. If I hadn't noticed until dialysis was complete(3 hours later). Which we would have noticed when Mr. C went to weigh himself at the end of his treatment. The basement ceiling would have been destroyed. Shew, just minimal damage. Oh, I WAS so SOooooooo BLESSED TO BE PROMPTED TO GO TO THE BASEMENT. We recognize God's hand in saving us from yet one more stress.  I am not crying about a river, just a few drips!
FOR THIS WE ARE
THANKFUL!!!!!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Thankful Tuesday: Rock a bye Memories!

I couldn't be truthful if I didn't admit I have had the blues this past week. Missing my kids and grand kids. Worried about my husband and very, very wore down. This past weekend I had a 'I WANT MY MOM' moment. Of course her birthday is coming up. So I have been reflecting on conversations we shared. So glad these memories stay fresh and that I can reflect on them when I need to. It has been 15yrs. since her passing.  I still vividly remember times when she listened, listened to me ramble on... I could poor my heart out. Whether she agreed with me or not. She listened. After I was finished she would lovingly give me suggestions, cry with me and in her special 'MOM' lullaby voice, rock-a-bye and sing that song in her special Mommy voice that would make you smile!  -- no matter the age. I really miss her.   (of course I do that with my own kids now)
I just wanted a rock-a-bye moment with my Mom. It has been a little while that I've had a sincere breakdown of missing Mom.  So THANKFUL I HAVE THESE MEMORIES in difficult times.